It’s a cool rainy day here and it was all I could do to get out of bed. As it often does, my mood matched the weather. I looked around and my eyes landed on my many to-do lists. Would today be the day they band together and swallow me whole?
The last thing I wanted to do was write another blog post. The last thing I want to admit is that I have bad days.
The truth is that people I love are hurting right now. And it kills me that I can’t take on the pain myself to ease their suffering. All I can do is offer support from the sidelines, and that seems so very inadequate right now. I have a difficult time dealing with the fact that I can’t always make everything better with a positive attitude and hard work. There are some problems in this life I won’t be able to solve, no matter how hard I try. As it turns out, I’m human just like everyone else.
So I’ll deal with this day in the only way I know how. I’ll do what I can do, tackle the things I can control. I’ll send out orders, pay bills, break up fights between my children. I’ll try to check items off my to-do list faster than new tasks get added on. I’ll make phone calls and remind my people how much I love them, even though I can’t be with them right now. I’ll do my work, I’ll keep pushing forward.
Tonight before I go to bed I’ll check the weather for the week and inevitably see sunshine in the forecast. I’ll remind myself that this too shall pass. Even though today is dark it won’t be raining forever…
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